New Implement(s)!

Before my shower last night, Tom asked me, "Do we still have the ankle and wrist restraints?" 

I eyed him curiously from the bathroom and said, "The set that is connected under the mattress? It was still there the last time I checked.  Why?" 

"Good, because after we have our showers I'm going to tie you down to the bed.  We are going to try our new riding crop tonight." 

I smiled and got pretty excited thinking about what was going to happen while I took my shower.  I got out and started browsing the web on my tablet while he showered.  Then, he joined me in the bedroom and pulled out the new hand-shaped crop. 

He swished it through the air to get a feel for it.  I rolled over and offered him a target.  He rested the tip on my bottom and gave me a pop with the flick of his wrist.  As he got more confident in handling the crop, he varied the strength and peppered my bottom.  He asked me, "How does it feel?" 

"Good," I replied.  Then, I watched him give himself a swat on his thigh.  His reaction was very funny to me.  I could punch my guy in the arm and he wouldn't bat an eye, but he definitely flinched from the little slap of the crop that he gave himself.  I laughed. 

He looked over and said, "I definitely admire you."  He has always been amazed at the amount of punishment I can endure. 

He walked around the bed and pulled the wrist and ankle restraints out from under the corners of the mattress.  He said aloud, "I could have you face the headboard or the dresser..." 

I added, "Yep, or that way or that way.  It's totally up to you." 

"I know that and I'll decide," he said with an edge in his voice and a pop to my rear.  "I want you to face the dresser and put a pillow under you."  He handed me one of those thick pillows that you lean against while sitting.  I positioned myself over it. I could feel myself getting wet knowing that my bottom was elevated for him to do with as he wanted. He tied my ankles first and then my arms (the cuffs adjust) but he made sure to leave me enough slack to get on my hands and knees if he wanted. 

He stood in front of me and leaned over to caress my backside.  I took advantage of the situation and rubbed my cheek against his manhood.  Then, I started to kiss him and tease the tip with my lips and tongue. He slid a finger down my crevice and found the wetness that I knew was already there. 

He pulled away and popped me a few times before walking around to the other side of the bed behind me.  He put the crop down and leaned against me. Oh, how I wanted him right then.  He teased my opening and smacked my bottom with his hand.  I tried to push back against him, but he was in control.  He spanked a few more times before he slid in ever so slowly.  It was amazing - my sense of touch had heightened all because I wasn't allowed to move.  I could feel myself stretching as he slid all the way in.  He decided on a slow, deliberate pace and he spanked me every time he pulled back.  The sensations were wonderful. 

At this slower pace, I found that I could control my pelvic floor muscles more deliberately, so I concentrated on squeezing as he was pulling back. I heard him moan and felt his release as he pumped into me. 

He untied me and told me to get my vibrator.  He slid his finger inside me and gently stroked. He watched my reactions until he found my g-spot.  Then, he firmly  massaged it using a come-hither motion until I reached my earth-shattering release. I shut off the vibrator and collapsed into the bed enjoying the climax-induced high. 

Side Notes: 

Riding Crop - We bought the riding crop at our local Tractor Supply at the suggestion of an anonymous comment on Erica's blog.  It was definitely a surprise to find a crop available so close to home as our nearest adult store is a 30 minute drive.  Also, it was actually cheaper at $14.99 than most of the ones available online or in an adult shop. 

Bath Brush - I found a bamboo bath brush at my local Rite Aid!  I actually went in to look for cough medicine. I wandered passed the bath stuff and the bath brush caught my eye.  Every time I've looked for one so far, they usually have this extruded rectangle on what should be a flat surface so I don't buy it because I don't care to feel what it's like getting whacked with that much of an uneven surface.  This bath brush, however, was perfectly smooth, so I bought it for $6.99!  I excitedly showed it to Tom a few nights ago and he tried it out on my vulnerable rearend. Surprisingly, it packs a lot of unyielding sting, and it's almost too much to handle without a warm up! Speaking of the handle, Tom also tried a few smacks with that end which also worked quite well. 

The verdict?  We both love our new implements! :-D

(I'm posting from my phone, so I will add links later.)

Sometimes, all it takes is time together.

It rained and got really cold as the day progressed yesterday.  I was at work and as it continued to rain, I started thinking about after work.  With it being so wet, Tom won't work outside on building the storage shed, and since it is getting colder, it won't be likely that he'll want to freeze to death in his workshop.  That only means one thing - we get to spend the evening together! 

My work day ended on a good note, and I left to visit with Mom while I waited for Tom to get home from work.  When he called to say he was on his way, I headed home.  Tom walked in and I greeted him with a kiss.  He unloaded the vehicle and started to say that he wanted to go out to his workshop to load up his new tool bag that I had just bought him.  I pouted, "But it's too cold outside!" 

He thought for a moment, "Well, what do you want to do?" 

"I don't know. I thought since it was cold and rainy that you'd stay inside and we'd spend time together.  We've been too tired lately to do much together.  We could play darts, watch a movie, play cards...?" 

He smiled, "OK." I smiled in return, YAY! 

So, we decided to cook steak, fries, and beans for dinner.  While the steaks thawed in the sink, I put his wet work clothes in the wash and put away the dishes in the dishwasher. 

"The steaks are ready to season," Tom announced  after checking on them. 

"Does that mean you want me to season them or are you going to?" 

He said, "You are going to season them."  You know you must be doing something right when your man trusts you to season the meat! :-D 

After I was done with the meat, I went to the A/V Receiver and plugged in my phone.  I pulled up my playlist of music we used to listen to all the time and set it to shuffle.  Tom went out to get firewood and I started getting old bills ready to burn in the fireplace.  It didn't take long for it to catch - old bills, receipts, and spam snail-mail are good for something.  Then, we started dinner. 

He cooked the steaks and seasoned the beans on the stove.  I tossed the fries on a baking sheet and put them in the oven.  Then, I turned and started rinsing off the dirty dishes and putting them in the dishwasher. It felt so good to be working together in the kitchen again.  It's been so long. 

As the music continued to play in the background, we ate dinner and cleared off the table.  We pulled out a deck of cards and started playing Rummy. 

We talked and sang. We were not arguing. 

We hugged and kissed. We were enjoying each other's company. 

We laughed and cried. We were finding each other again. 

We made apple tarts for dessert and wandered off for showers.  I brought our music to the bedroom and we listened and talked as I gave the love of my life a full body massage.  I watched him relax and enjoy my touch. 

Eventually, we turned off the lights and I cuddled into him.  We drifted off to sleep feeling more relaxed, more together than we have in months. 

We didn't need to go out to dinner.  We didn't need some expensive entertainment.  We didn't even need spanking or sex. 

All we needed last night was time together.

Please feel free to skip this post. Nothing interesting today.

I've really been feeling down off and on lately, and it's got me constantly teetering on an emotional tightrope.  A joke can hurt my feelings and bring me to tears.  An influx in how something is said or a raised voice can make me breakdown.  I feel like I need more attention, more emotional involvement, more physical contact.  As a result of all this, I feel needy, yet oddly dettached. 

I've thought about distracting myself. There are many things that I like to do such as reading, playing video games, watching movies, getting spanked, and playing darts, but I've found that when it comes time to do any of those things I feel restlessly indecisive and so I'll change my mind, no longer wanting to do anything anymore. 

On Sunday, I actually felt very accomplished.  I got a lot done last week and over the weekend.  I fixed our desktop which had a corrupted user profile.  I backed up and updated my cellphone.  I backed up my laptop and moved some files off of it.  I went up to Mom's and cleaned up her bedroom and put up some things she wanted on her walls. 

Yesterday, I felt drained and down, so I ended up overreacting to a financial issue that isn't even a problem yet and probably won't be a problem at all.  It's just that it was something unexpected.  What I figured out later is that we just need to discuss the bills about once a week so that we are both up-to-date on what is due, when it is due, and how much we have to save/spend/loan out.  Money wasn't the problem...it was a minor failure to communicate on both sides. 

The rest of the evening went okay.  I watched the three year old for a few hours while the rest of them went shopping.  After they picked him up, I took a shower and got ready for bed.  Tom caressed me for a little while and then I fell asleep when he went looking for a midnight snack. 

Today, I'm still tired and don't feel very motivated but I need to go to a little basketball performance for my other nephew (the one I helped raise for five years) later this evening.  His mom (my sister) has been pretty ridiculous to our parents for the last two months, but I'm not going to not support my nephew just because his parents have a problem.  The same has been true for my other two nephews. (sigh) 

(deep breath) I will climb out of this depressed hole that I've fallen into...why? Because I just don't have time for it.

No date night yet, but we still had fun this weekend.

Instead of going on our date Friday night, we postponed it and decided to take the boys for a couple of hours and let their parents go out to dinner or see a movie. We still aren't entirely sure when we will have our date but it will happen eventually.  We've both been pretty tired so it is hard to pick an evening when we don't know if we can actually stay awake through the whole movie.  For now, we will aim for this Friday or Saturday. 

Last Saturday, we went to visit Tom's mom and tow a car back that Tom's brother will use (one with kids).  We also ended up picking up a couple of tool chests for Tom and a few furniture pieces for his brother.  On the way back home, Tom started to get very tired so I offered to drive.  He took an exit and we switched out at the stop sign.  I drove the truck and 20 foot loaded trailer the rest of the way home.  I know some women have a lot of trouble towing something, but I'm proud to say that I am not one of them. :-D  In fact, Tom and his brother apparently felt so safe with me that they both fell asleep during the entire time I was driving...LOL.
 

After we unloaded everything and his brother went home, we went inside to eat dinner and take showers.  I warmed up some beef stew that my mom had made and put some apple tarts in the oven for dessert.  I was really hungry so everything tasted delicious. 

After dinner, I headed for the shower and then went into the living room to watch some TV as we hadn't planned to do anything else.  When Tom finished his shower, he joined me on the couch.

He leaned toward me and asked, "Did you bring any of the paddles?" 

I shook my head and shrugged, "I wasn't really thinking about it." 

He said, "Do you need me to always tell you when to bring the paddles out?" 

I just shrugged, not really into it. 

He leaned in more and whispered in my ear, "I'm going to spank you with my hand just so you know that I can and will spank you with or without a paddle and even when you may not want it."  I smiled.
 

He had me face down, bottom up on the couch rather quickly.  Smack! That was rather stingy! Spank! Oh, how I missed his hand. Smack! I thrust my bottom up some more.  Smack! Mmm, the delicious mix of sting and thud his hand can produce! Ouch! Yes!  How could I have thought that I didn't want this tonight? Yikes! Not all in one spot! Ouf, yes, I supposed you needed to get the other side too after that. 

We were both getting excited, so he followed me into the bedroom.  I think he likes to follow me so he can give me a good pop if I'm moving to slowly and because he likes looking at my ass.  I certainly don't mind either reason. ;-) 

He spanked me a few more times before entering me roughly from behind.  I pressed my vibrator against my front while he slammed into me.  Oh, it felt so good! Just after he reached his climax he had me roll onto my back.  With the vibrator still going, he slipped in a finger and started to stroke my internal feel-good spot.  It didn't take long for me to reach mine like this. 

As I was coming down, I heard him say, "You're so beautiful."  I gave him a shy, goofy smile.  I have no idea why, but he really enjoys watching me. :-)

Constant state of flux.

On Wednesday, we spent all day getting really excited about being alone together.  After work, we planned to organize Tom's workshop area together...but his brother and the boys showed up so they could get out of their house for a little while and come visit........neither of us were too happy, but they are family.  So, the kids ate McDonad's chicken nuggets while Tom and his brother organized the tools that were on the floor.  I just sat on the floor while the little one got into everything and the older one was trying to not freeze to death - it was in the 20's and the workshop only has a small electric heater.  At some point, they finally decided to go home and we went inside to shower. 

We went into the living room where Tom decided to have me bend over facing the couch with my hands on the seat cushions.  He used the double strap just a little too hard at first but adjusted quickly.  In no time at all, I could take the harder swings and relax into them while he could let out some frustration.  The change of scenery was nice, but we soon found ourselves back in the bedroom for some hard and fast loving.  By the end of the evening, I know I was seeing stars. :-D 

We have been talking about going out to dinner recently, so last night (before receiving a hand spanking for teasing him which of course led to some wonderfully exciting sex), we decided we would have a date night this Friday (today).  Our plan is to have dinner at Logan's Roadhouse and then go to the movies to see Taken 3. 

...and then I just got a phone call about us babysitting the boys after our movie so that the parents can go out to a movie as well. (sigh)  Now, I just need to figure out if we want the kids to come over or if we want to go over to their place.  I think my preference would be for the kids to come over since we have TV and internet.  Honestly, I think I'd rather move our date night, but it'll work out whatever we decide... 

Anyway, as you can see, it's never a dull moment around here. :-P

News Flash!

We interrupt your daily routine to announce that Tom and I will be ALONE in our house tonight! We are both crazy excited and are going to enjoy spending time together doing WHATEVER we want!

And now, you may return to your regularly scheduled agenda. :-)

It's been a while...

...so I guess it's time to play catch up.  The holidays went pretty well with relatives coming and going.  Not everything went as planned but honestly when do things ever go as planned especially with so many people involved. (LOL) ;-P  Still spending time with family was definitely a plus. 

We are down to only one guest at the moment, however we will be having an uncle and his friend over for a couple of days this week.  We haven't seen him since the funeral so it should be a fun, low stress visit this time around. 

Tom and I are definitely looking forward to the day when we are living by ourselves again.  Then, we will be able to work on us and what we want.  I'm sure things won't go back to the way they were before everything changed, so we will need to adjust to a new normal.  We have certainly grown a lot in the last year and now we will work towards finding a new balance that works for us.  There are definitely some new things we would like to try and I am full of nervous excitment. It will certainly be different. :-)